Better than last Weekend

Good news, I am feeling better this weekend. Last weekend I absolutely, royally crashed. I had cyclical thoughts that just drove me crazy. My growing to do list coupled with OCD just overwhelmed me.

I spoke to the doctor I work for, he told me I'm free to hook myself up to the biofeedback machine (SCIO EPFX) on lunch breaks and work on myself. It helped, with the machine I'm able to zap the Lyme bacteria and any other nasty that comes up. I don't know how strong it is for killing the bacteria, but after going through a bumh of the therapies it has to offer I feel better.

I also found that I had an infection in my kidneys, so I'm drinking a UTI tea for the next two weeks.

My stomach/lower abdomen was constantly feeling bloated. My sides were hurting again and I felt dehydrated no matter what amount of water I drank. 

I have done a week of the tea, and it has for sure helped knock it out. Pain is 99% gone and the bloating is too. 

Working with the machine on myself is interesting. I am a certified biofeedback technician, and work under the supervision of a doctor. But until recently I never worked on myself.

I did a bunch of things, balanced chakras, treated the stressed emotions, zapped the bugs, tested my reactivity to a few of my oils, and a few other random things to boost my system. 

I am so grateful I work for such awesome people who allow me to do things like this. I wish this technology was available for everyone, but the amount of time alone it takes to do a full spectrum treatment like I did for myself-it'd cost a fortune..

I worked on myself a total of 4 hours last week, and I hope I'll be able to do another 2-4 hours this week.

Anyway, I just thought I would give everyone an update. 

I have spread too thin

Well I did it...I started feeling good and took advantage of it.

Right now I have college and work. Both of which take a great deal of my time. I work 20-30 hours a week and I squeeze my homework in wherever possible.
I didn't realize how stressed that made me until this week, and today my body said that's enough. I'm physically and mentally worn out, I can't get out of bed.
Tomorrow I will though, but it's time I speak to who I work for and cut my hours so I can find a balance. At this rate I will undo all of the health gains I have made this year.

Mentally, all of my thoughts are that nothing will be good enough. If I cut my hours I won't be happy with myself, I life working and I like making money for the first time in my life. On the other hand if I keep at the same pace I will physically crash...which lead to nothing getting done. If I can't get out of bed I can't do my school or work.

I just have no idea what on earth to do. I'm stressed, which is not me at all. I just don't like that I can't keep up my energy levels. I only work 4 days a week and never work the weekends. And it takes all 3 of my days off to build up my energy. Even then I'm steadily losing a little more, without regain, every week.

I am doing so much better than two years ago. It's just hard to believe that this is still the best I can do, which just doesn't seem to be enough....