Kinda Paranoid and also Kinda the Flu...

So I came home with a something from my trip last week...and it may be the flu.
Saturday I was very sick, sweating, chills, fever, nausea, didn't feel like eating, coughing, sounds about like the flu. I took a bunch of things, Sunday was better, and Monday I was almost back to normal. Whatever I took helped for sure.

Now I just have this lingering fatigue and cough. As usual with this fatigue I get this depression, that leaves me thinking.
Whenever I get depressed it's like I'm stuck in my head. I'm too tired to do something to keep myself distracted. But of course I'm no near tired enough to actually take a nap. I've got energy, I'm stuck in my head, I don't feel like actually doing anything....recipe for disaster.

I know this time it was just a little bug, may not have even been the flu. I only picked the flu because everyone in my family has had it recently, must be my turn I guess.
But what about next time, I have tried so hard to get over this Lyme disease and all of its co infections, what if I had to start back from ground zero. Full symptoms and no doctor, what if I had to do that again. Can I even do that again? Physically what would happen? My brain is already shot. I already know it will probably be the last of my organs to get back to what it should be doing(like right now I should be asleep, but this is the best thinking I've done all day). It takes nerves up to 8 years to heal, if I can get may brain in the repair stage before the year is over it would still be 2024 before my brain and the rest of my nervous system is healed.

In the accident that triggered this illness I stretched the nerve in my left arm, lost feeling in all my fingers. It's five years later and feeling is back significantly but overall dulled. That's just one nerve that wasn't broken, I know the Lyme has impeded healing but still.

I mean common sense tells me my brain is fine it's just neurotoxins. Once my body isn't infected and toxic it will work just like it should. The thing is I just don't know.

My muscles and my stomach have taken a beating. Now that I am doing better I've been looking back on what's changed. My muscles have changed. Very much shrunken and I can't exercise.

Yesterday I took a home stomach acid test dr.Jowdy told me to do. I had to drink a water/baking soda solution right after getting up, if it took longer than five minutes to belch the stomach isn't producing a significant amount of acid. I never belched or burped. So as per his instructions I ordered some betaine hcl to take with meals. This would explain why I don't feel like eating, food doesn't leave my stomach, I feel it all day long. It could also explain why I did so well last week on all of the junk food, it's already broken down into nothing.
Anyway, Amazon said my HCL will be here by 8pm tomorrow. I'll report back with results.

Now that I got a little sidetracked, here's why I went from talking about my muscles to my stomach. I think that maybe because I'm always trying to digest food(I don't cycle through full/empty between meals) and not actually getting the nutrients, my muscles don't have the nutrients they need to build themselves. Trying the HCL will be interesting, maybe this will be affected.

All of this has just been running through my mind. Like what if I don't actually get well. What if all of these remedies are just a band aid and making me feel better for the time being. What if I do get better for a while then it all comes back and I don't have access to the Hansa Center or any natural Doctor that I like? I would have to live through the herxing again and not knowing if this antibiotic was going to do anything, just hoping that this one or this combo was the one to help me get better(again). What if after all this I get something else and have to learn an all new disease and find a new doctor? Just over and over I keep thinking about these what if questions.

I know I could do it again. I haven't even finished this time around but I have faith that I will, but my mind keeps my head spinning.

I guess after all this there will be a lot to remember, good and bad.

Therapies Explained:Part Two

A month ago I wrote an explanation to some of the therapies they used on me at the Hansa Center. The first part of this post included the more major therapies like the infrared sauna and the ST8. This post will discuss the more minor (yet still vital) therapies.

PowerPlate-The powerplate is a vibrating device used for exercise. The high vibrations stimulate the muscles and increase circulation throughout the body. It is great for exercise purposes, the vibration is a workout. The short time I would have to do this was more so for opening up the cold stagnant muscle tissue, not for building muscle.
This was one of the lower priority treatments, I did it every other day for five minutes.

Bemer-This is specifically used for circulation and oxygenation. It is used to speed healing in the cells. While laying on the mat they would have us drink an electrolyte drink for hydration.
I'll be honest, I do not know much about this one. We all typically do it twice a day here for 8 minutes.
Here is the website for more info

Q-Laser-The Q-laser is used to stimulate healing and reduce inflammation. I would use this daily and on a different place each treatment (I.e heart, liver, gallbladder, kidney, ears). The laser can penetrate deep in the skin to reduce the inflammation and speed the healing process. Those of us Lyme patients have severly stressed out detox organs, so this device is good for providing an extra boost.
Here is the website for Q-Laser(not the same as Q switching laser)


I know this post isn't as exciting as the original, that's why it took a month to write it. I would like to stress that all of the treatments are important and play a role with eachother by boosting a specific part of the body.

Enjoy! Next on my to-do list is explaining my supplements.

Guess What!

 Hey you guys!
I just came back from a school trip to the beach! It was so nice to get away, even if school was involved the whole time it was still great.

During this trip I remained on all meds but couldn't do the sauna at all or detox baths. The amazing thing is I feel better now than before I left. My acne is 98% clear, my energy and motivation is way up,  and wait for it....I've been sleeping almost like a normal person. Who else is shocked?? Get this, I ate junk all week long. The only healthy foods I ate were oranges. That's it, the rest was sandwiches, processed meat, synthetic crap foods(think chips/cheese puffs/yogurt), and cereal. I even had plain old processed, pasteurized cow milk on my cereal in the morning.

If you aren't surprised of my progress after that I'll be shocked again...

I have no idea what did it. Could have been the positive energy and the adrenalin (my first guess), all of the sunlight, being in a different environment, or even simply because I didn't dwell on the fact I was eating nutrientless food.
I noticed I was feeling different and acne clearing probably the second day. I didn't really get into the sun until the fourth and fifth day so I know it isn't fully responsible.

Ya know what though? I don't question it. I feel better, I exercised and played soccer with minimal inhibitance (even impressed someone), and I have been able to wake up early and go to bed on time without issue. Not seeing a problem here.

I praise God for this improvement and protection from the toxins that can harm my progress.

The Excitement of a Health Nerd!

Yes it's me, I'm actually posting. Commence to put on your shocked face!

I am still doing well, this Friday will be 4 weeks since I came home. I have gotten many comments on how much better I look. I can even see a difference in how I look, which doesn't happen often in the positive direction.
What surprised me was how many people commented on how I look, no one ever told I looked sick or unwell. I mean that's normal for all lyme patients...the "you don't look sick" line is infamous in our community. The sad part is the truth in it, a few of my friends with LD I could mistake as healthy without a doubt. It's just how it is, we don't look sick most of the time.

But hey, I'm not complaining. I look better, feel better, and have gotten complements. Yep, no problem here at all! Too many Lyme patients never get to say they are on the up and up. I'm still not going to say anything about heading into remission or becoming cured until I cannot even tell I WAS sick.

Anyway, all is well on my end. I am about to finish up all of my supplement bottles that I received at Hansa. Tomorrow I'll start the new bottles, about the time I finish them I'll be done with supplements altogether. Who would have thought one day I wouldn't be taking a single supplement to make an attempt at altering my poor health. It feels miraculous.

One of the therapies Dr.Jowdy wanted me to do when I came home was the infrared sauna. I was able to locate 2 places in my area where I could go.  The only thing about them was the cost, it wouldn't take long for it to be equal cost to buying a sauna. So that's what we did! Over this last weekend our sauna was delivered. We found a great Sunligjyen signature III on eBay, barely used and only half the price of a brand new one. The best part, the owner packed, delivered, and set it up. I hardly had to do anything except help bring the parts into the house. Sunlighen could only have it delivered as far as the driveway...from there we would have had to unpack the crate(in the driveway) and move the parts one by one to where they needed to be.

I feel like I got just as good a deal as if I had bought a new one!

I have used it for 30min each day since I got it. Some of my symptoms that had stagnated in improvement are starting to change again.
My muscles had been getting tight, my skin was starting to really break out again(detox issue), and my sleep of course. Since re-starting the sauna treatments these are starting to improve. In fact the first day I used it I used it about half an hour before going to bed, I fell asleep half hour after getting in bed! Granted that was about 1:45am but still, that's almost 2 hours better than usual.
I need to do that again, that was some of the best sleep I have had in a long time.

Having a sauna at my own house that I can use at any point is amazing, even how well it worked out was a blessing in itself. I expect to get some great use out of that device over the coming weeks and months.

Even the dog likes the sauna! She didn't want to get out! I was afraid she was going to overheat so after ten minutes I pushed her on out the door, it was a sight to see. The dog sitting in a sauna LOL

All and all, I'm doing well.

Psalm 118:24
This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.

Feeling Well

I am still feeling well, I just wanted to give a quick update. 

Since I've come home I have had more energy and motivation to do the things I enjoy. One of my hobbies is marine fish. They are so fun to have around but they take a lot of energy to keep up. I have to test the tank weekly, change water weekly, feed at least once daily, supplement calcium/magnesium for corals, clean the glass, and even more. I haven't had the energy to do this for a long time...I would say for the last year all I have done is keep the fish alive. I fed the fish and kept the water from getting too gross. I knew one day I would be able to take care of them like I wanted and they needed. Thankfully I am reaching that point!! In the last two weeks I have spent a significant amount of time bringing the tank back into balance where it needs to be. 

This is just one of my projects. I had forgotten what it was like to actually have the drive to do things like clean out a closet or catch up on something I had to abandon.

Well, that's all I have for today. It's nice to have good news!

I have started a post to explain the other therapies at Hansa and why I picked Hansa, I just haven't had the time to finish...