Its Fall

 Hello my little corner of the internet! Long time no speak, i'm still alive I promise!

I am nearing the end of my third quarter of chiropractic school! Next month I will be three quarters down, eleven more to go! 

In school I have joined the Applied Kinesiology club (AK) and have begun going to seminars to learn the subject the best I can. For those familar with AK and my story, AK played a significant roll in my healing journey. AK and CPK are two subjects my lyme doc is well versed in, and I personally one day would like to also master the subject. I still have a ways to go, like with anything the further into a subject I go, the more I realize there is too know. All in all school has been great but it is a full time schedule. Seminars on some weekends, 7a, classes 3x a week, 32.5 credit hours. Not much down time! Plus I am still making it to the gym, my current goal is 3x a week. I usually save it for the last activity of the day before dinner. 

As far as my health and lyme and PANDAS are all concerned, I am still doing well. I have moments where my fatigue slows me down, or I struggle to get a decent nights sleep. A couple months back I found a local place where I can get IV C again, I did my 3rd yesterday. Each visit I have gone up in dose, my first was 10grams, then 25grams, then yesterday was 50grams. The first two really brought my energy back up and lasted. I felt great! The 50g yesterday may have been a big jump, today I have been worn out but granted there are many reasons for this to be possible. 

I have noticed, comparing myself to other students, that I am not always to keep up with others as far as how quickly I learn. Some students here I would describe as being truly brilliant, not that anyone here would be described as "dumb" but some people can pickup new things very quickly. I am nothing but impressed, I just have to remind myself that I have a different learning style than other people. I am also far from the only one who has to put in real effort to learn new things.

One thing I learned about the chiropractic field, a lot of people do not choose chiropractic as their first career choice. A lot of students ended up here for other reasons besides " I just knew I wanted to be a chiropractor". To clarify, I do not think there is anything wrong with this, its just an observation. I have known for years what direction I wanted to go in with my life. 

My roommate for example wanted to be a dentist first, another friend of mine was in veterinarian school and decided she didn't like the field as much as she thought, another guy decided he needed to go back to school and this was a good place to go. Everyone has a different reason to be here, but I did find it odd a whole lot of students never even went to the chiropractor before becoming a student here. Not once. 

I have a lot of thoughts on this haha, but for now I will keep them to myself. I think in part some people thought it would be an easy way to get the doctor title added to their name, or bone popping sounds like fun, I don't know. I do know, there are a lot more benefits and meaning behind chiropractic than I thought there was. 

It is amazing to me, to look back and see the journey that God has placed me on. The pathway that taught me the patience to reach for more information and the caring spirit to want to help others. If I was in this just because I wanted to be a doctor, Im not sure I could do it. I am looking forward to learning all that is available to me and the options I will have for when I reach practice. 

Next Round of Fighting

Lots of things have happened since my last post. First, my memory has been all over the place, for one September is almost over...my last post was August 30...and I thought that was last Sunday or maybe the weekend before. In reality it was actually three weeks ago.

Second, my stomach has been severely messed up. Last Tuesday I went into work to do some things, I was very sick and unwell that day, I spoke to another co worker there. She said You have a hell of a hernia thats what you have!
I hadn't been able to eat anything significant in several days and couldn't even drink water much, I was down to 129lbs which I haven't seen and haven't wanted to see in a long time.
So I saw my chiropractor that day and she put her hand on my stomach..she said oh my goodness, this must be one of the smallest stomachs I have ever felt. After that she said, without even pressing down I feel the artery pulsing, this is serious you need to start eating again and gain some weight back. She wasn't wrong either, I feel sickly thin...like a starvation malnourished thin.
Sure enough though, hiatal hernia. She adjusted it and man did that hurt! I saw my friend later that day, she's trained in some kinesiology. So she could do some muscle testing to see what else she could find with this whole abdominal situation. She did some things on my illeoceacal and houston valve. Plus she did something for my whole emotional ordeal, color balancing I believe its called.

During the color balancing she found that I was grieving over school, so we dug deeper to see the specifics. Long story short, I was grieving over having enough money to pay for school soon. But heres the catch, my school is cheap and its not bugging me...so I asked my friend, could this be for someone else? She said yes. Then I knew, it was about my best friend. I do not want him to go off to school this coming school year next year....if he saves enough pennies and gets the money he's going to school a thousand miles from me...I don't want that. Not one darn bit. He is the one person in my life that is health and he gets it. A healthy person who understands what I'm going through? Holy crap thats rare. He understands how important it is for me to talk about some of these issues that come up with me and he does the best he can to be there for me. He did that when I was healthy a few months ago too, we just have that sort of connection you could say.
I know I've lost my mind and my body for now...badly...but I can't imagine him being gone from me or wanting to be gone like that, ya know? I just don't get how he would want to go so far away when he doesn't have a need for it...but school is one of those things I just don't get like the normal people do...being sick, I just show up and do the work then leave..dont get me wrong, I have good grades and do well in school. But I have no excess energy to spend on it.

Anyway, back to my kinesiology friend. We finished out that day cleaning out my emotions, I went home feeling a bit lighter and able to eat. I had some progress for the first time since I last visited kansas. It didn't stick though. The next day, I was able to eat better than previous but not well. Emotions hadn't come back full blown but they were sliding.
That thursday my chiropractor told me to come for a visit(yep, she texted me and said to come see her. She's just that cool). She rechecked my stomach, out again. She adjusted it, this time much less painful and I could feel it release. My eating improved for several days after this.
She also checked me on her little oil biofeedback device, it gives out a reading on essential oils that will be beneficial for my body. Several relaxation oils plus a few for digestion were my results. Since then I've been keeping up with using my oils, seems to be slightly relaxing if anything. I smell good too, like a whole flower shop exploded.

This week I've seen my chiropractor again, for my stomach to be adjusted. I saw my friend yesterday and she did some more digging on me. Some kind of school stress related to me came up, we couldn't figure out anything deeper than that though. We cleared it, that was the only emotional situation for me this time, very much improved after the visit. I also started my supplements back, last week when I couldn't eat or drink i quite everything except for a few important things.

The week before last my ND here told me it could be h.pylori, so I started Mastic Gum. That has helped my stomach upset and it was effective quickly, still taking for now. I don't think I have h.pylori...I think its all been the hernia. Either way I'm taking mastic gum and a natural antibiotic called biocidin to clear any candida or other nasties from my digestion. Plus a super strong probiotic.

All of this, catches y'all up until today.

Today I spoke to a lyme friend I haven't seen in a long while. She's starting with a new llmd that is super well liked and way up in the food chain. After telling her about all my psych symptoms that I cared to share plus my physical, she said I think you've got a bartonella infection brewing that needs addressing.
She did a quick muscle test on me and told me yes its bart, however no babesia this time. I figure if anything it'll be worth talking to my kansas doctor about when I see him.
Im going back the week after next for a short visit, by that I mean an emergency visit for him to work on me.
Speaking to my friend was great, it was nice to talk to someone whose as well lyme educated as I am. Except she's not so much in brain fog as I am right now, so it was much easier for her to take a shot as to what could be causing my new found symptoms. When she said bartonella, i remembered back when i took houtynnia several years ago and had a brain herx, which gave me a severe brain herx.
Since then, sometime last year, I had my KS dr. check me for bart, to which i was negative. But i wasn't having these symptoms then...so, maybe we've reached a new layer of junk in my system to remove.
I don't currently feel toxic, I feel like it is more pathogenic...I do the ionic foot bath and some other stuff...I should be pulling out a significant amount of toxins. Idk how its even possible that I still have toxins in me at this point, but whatever.
Ill keep on working.