Goings On

Hey friends, it's been a few weeks hasn't it

I don't have a great deal to report. I have been sickly with a cold or infection this past 4-6 weeks. It comes and goes, always in the sinuses. It also made my throat sore at one point and made my sides hurt at one point.
I have yet to be able to completely kill it off, I've been taking stuff for allergies and for pathogens. No change either way it just more less runs it's own course. Saltwater helped knockout the sore throat and sinus issues. But my nose is still running on and off through the day.

I guess for now I just live with it.
I also had Labs redone a few weeks ago, soon I'll be doing a phone consult with my doc in Kansas to see what's going on in my system. In the labs I also had adrenal and hormone tests run, so I will get some information on those also(which I'm excited to see).

Physically I have been stressed lately, school is dragging me down hard. I feel like I just don't have enough brain power to study and think like I need to. I read my studies and complete the assignments, but it's like I just can't get revved up to speed. Then I hit a wall and I can't do anything more.

So that alone has kept me in a constant state of slight aggravation...it takes me back to the "I just can't do enough" category...
I just keep telling myself, one day this won't be a problem. The only issue with that-I have stuff that must be done now.

Then today I had another lovely surprise...
I was driving home from a friends house, still in their neighborhood. I see a tan blur towards the front passenger side of the car, I gun it hard, and next thing I see is something slamming into my back window. The little beads of tempered glass seemed to have been flying almost as if in slow motion. A deer slammed the door of my car!!
That sucker had come right out of the woods, slammed my car, then walked off back to where he came from.
So that was my shock for the day :/

The good news is I gunned it, so it didnt go through the windshield and land in my lap. The damage isn't too bad, a busted window and a small dent in the door(which could probably just be popped out).

And because I didn't hit it head on, there was no sudden stopping or jerking. Which means no injury to me in any way. And that's the real blessing, that I am okay, because that was not a small deer. This deer(for the hunters out there reading), was for sure mounting size. It's one you would have had mounted to brag to your friends over. But, he or she(I didnt see antlers..but it may have had them) was no baby Bambi.

Once my frazzled brain calms down I'm going to sleep. I was worn out before this incident and I have work in the morning. This is gonna be fun.

And I'm off...

If anyone reading this post suffers from chronic disease, you will get everything im about to say. If you do not have a disease, just hold with me.

As you guys may know, learning to deal with chronic illness creates a new way of life. A patient must learn his limits, what's okay and what's just too over taxing. Here's a few examples-waking up in the morning, never open your eyes then proceed to stand up. A waiting period varying from 5 minutes to 45 minutes is needed to avoid possibly collapsing on the floor from low BP.
Thyroid hormone you see is what gives you your early morning energy first thing. Lyme disease however attacks your thyroid, making it dysfunctional. When the thyroid function dips, so will you.

Next-we've wokem up, blood pressure is now at a functioning level. We are standing up changing clothes, normal right? Well, no. Depending on the day we have joint, bone, and or muscle pain. Once clotures are changed, bodily fatigue is beginning.

And then after this processs we may want breakfast. Not always, sometimes the morning is just too blurry to eat. If we actually need to eat, something simple and small(but healthy, junk food causes it's own a symptoms) like an apple is all that is consumed. Maybe not even the whole apple depending on the day.

And that's a regular morning for someone like me. I wake up, lay there until I can get up, grab an apple, then go to work and smile.
Lately my joints rarely cause a problem, bones are fine, but muscles are tight and cold. So changing clothes is tiring to some degree.
I started stretching and exercising mildly, I have had tolerable improvement. I can't over do the exercise, been there done that. Never ends in my favor.
I started the mild exercise a three days ago I think, and today was notably harder than before to get down on the floor and expend energy.
I only do my routine for 5 minutes max.

Anyway, I think I got distracted.

Chronic illness changes what a person can do. I saw something recently, and it just triggered me.
I don't know of a better way of putting it, but it just hit me.

The post was a happy parent bragging about how amazing their kid is doing. Working and doing school am obnoxious amount of time and a 4.0gpa.
I'm sad the say the only thing I felt was depressed and sorry for myself. I feel like I have fought to the death for the energy I have to work and to get my not so great gpa.
I eat a special high nutrient diet with minimal chemicals and garbage, I have single handily kept the amazon supplements companies in business, and I have had to fight with adults since I was barely a teenager to even get recognition that I'm sick and need treatment.

I have the disease that leaves me looking almost normal and feeling like I'm physically dead.
I eat weird foods all the time and I look anorexic.

And this disease is surpassing breast cancer and HIV by longshots...
But none of us get recognized. None of us get treatment. The only people that care are the ones who have experienced it.

Holding Together, New things Ahead

Can you believe it, I have been writhing this blog for over a year now. I want to give a quick thank you to all of my readers! This blog would be pointless if it didn't reach anyone. I started it to share my story as a way to reach out to other suffering. It has done just that, so thank you all.

Next on the agenda, we have a new president. I don't care if you like him or not, we need to be praying for our leaders. We need to pray for the guidance to bring this country back to be an economic power, we need to pray that those in leadership positions who are corrupt-are removed from power, and we need to pray that this country will be a safer place for everyone.

Me-I'm doing well, many many ups and downs with me this past month or two. I am my hoping this is a sign my body is working itself back into a corrected balance, we will see.
My email update with my doctor in KS is long due...I have a hormone and andrenal panel test to do soon, I'll see what the doctor says in my update.
Recently I have had a lot of sinus symptoms-constantly running and also coughing. I just can't seem to shake it. I've knocked it down significantly but I can't knock it out...
Also tinnitus, my ears ringing has been much worse recently. I have no idea what has thrown this out, but presumably it's sinus related.
Sleep is staying in a good place, I'm sleeping hard and waking up isn't as much of a struggle most days. I'm so happy with that. Still has room for improvement but I can survive off this.
I am still trying to get myself to exercise. This almost cold weather absolutely destroys my muscles, my hands feel almost bruised. Everything is fine when I get in the sauna, I've been trying to sauna then stretch/exercise a little. We will see how this progresses.

I guess you could say I am content with my current state. I am working and doing a school without drowning. Still plenty of improvement to make, but I can live like this,

And on another note, I am ready Suzanne Somers book Breakthrough. It's fantastic, I love how it's loaded with information from actual doctors and a patient(Suzanne) but it's written for patients. It's not crazy hard to understand because it is for the patients, I love it.
It's loaded with good information on hormones, adrenals hormones are very interesting...there are so many. No wonder adrenal fatigue can throw a person into a tailspin!

Anyway, here's my words for the week haha

Better than last Weekend

Good news, I am feeling better this weekend. Last weekend I absolutely, royally crashed. I had cyclical thoughts that just drove me crazy. My growing to do list coupled with OCD just overwhelmed me.

I spoke to the doctor I work for, he told me I'm free to hook myself up to the biofeedback machine (SCIO EPFX) on lunch breaks and work on myself. It helped, with the machine I'm able to zap the Lyme bacteria and any other nasty that comes up. I don't know how strong it is for killing the bacteria, but after going through a bumh of the therapies it has to offer I feel better.

I also found that I had an infection in my kidneys, so I'm drinking a UTI tea for the next two weeks.

My stomach/lower abdomen was constantly feeling bloated. My sides were hurting again and I felt dehydrated no matter what amount of water I drank. 

I have done a week of the tea, and it has for sure helped knock it out. Pain is 99% gone and the bloating is too. 

Working with the machine on myself is interesting. I am a certified biofeedback technician, and work under the supervision of a doctor. But until recently I never worked on myself.

I did a bunch of things, balanced chakras, treated the stressed emotions, zapped the bugs, tested my reactivity to a few of my oils, and a few other random things to boost my system. 

I am so grateful I work for such awesome people who allow me to do things like this. I wish this technology was available for everyone, but the amount of time alone it takes to do a full spectrum treatment like I did for myself-it'd cost a fortune..

I worked on myself a total of 4 hours last week, and I hope I'll be able to do another 2-4 hours this week.

Anyway, I just thought I would give everyone an update. 

I have spread too thin

Well I did it...I started feeling good and took advantage of it.

Right now I have college and work. Both of which take a great deal of my time. I work 20-30 hours a week and I squeeze my homework in wherever possible.
I didn't realize how stressed that made me until this week, and today my body said that's enough. I'm physically and mentally worn out, I can't get out of bed.
Tomorrow I will though, but it's time I speak to who I work for and cut my hours so I can find a balance. At this rate I will undo all of the health gains I have made this year.

Mentally, all of my thoughts are that nothing will be good enough. If I cut my hours I won't be happy with myself, I life working and I like making money for the first time in my life. On the other hand if I keep at the same pace I will physically crash...which lead to nothing getting done. If I can't get out of bed I can't do my school or work.

I just have no idea what on earth to do. I'm stressed, which is not me at all. I just don't like that I can't keep up my energy levels. I only work 4 days a week and never work the weekends. And it takes all 3 of my days off to build up my energy. Even then I'm steadily losing a little more, without regain, every week.

I am doing so much better than two years ago. It's just hard to believe that this is still the best I can do, which just doesn't seem to be enough....

It's been over a month

Well, I've been home over a month now since my last round of treatments.
I have some good things to report!

My energy is holding up, not perfect but I'm working and going through college with minimal struggle. Some days my energy is low and needs to be boosted, this is usually when the oils come in. The oils do help, and they are convenient.

Another breakthrough recently-the week before last I stopped sleeping again, worse than normal. I spoke to my ND, he gave me a bottle of L-theanine to try out. It's actually helping! I'm getting to sleep maybe an hour earlier depending on the night, but I'm sleeping harder. I'm having dreams and waking up on my own at a decent hour now. Another side affect of the theanine is more focus. It's actually helping me focus better when I'm reading and working, which is huge. That's been a hard symptom to adjust in the past, but this seems to be helping.
I first started at a high dose, 7-8 pills.  But Ive only been on it a week and I am doing fine on just 1-2 pills now that I've built it up in my system.

But overall I am doing well, I have been having random bouts of depression on my fatigued days. I would like to see how that will change now that I am sleeping a little bit better.

Treatment days 4/5

I am so sorry, I just forgot totally about my blog :(

I dropped the ball and forgot to write out days 4-5. This past visit to the center was fantastic, I made great strides! But while I was at the clinic I stayed beat, 8 felt worn out the whole time. Most days after treatment I would hit the couch and stay there until dinner. I felt well, just no excess energy.

Okay, cliff notes of day 4 and 5-

The doctor added in a remedy for my stomach, to remove some emotional trauma suppressing enzyme production. He also did the neurophotinic therapy on me again (day5). The first time I did this therapy I had to take several homeopathics to correct missconnections in my system, this time there were only a few.

The doctor said I shouldn't need to see him for 6 months!! When I go back it will be a short visit instead of a full week. 

Since leaving the clinic-

I feel great. I'm in college and working, something I couldn't have done before. It would have had to be either school or work, not both. I'm still experiencing more brain fog than I would like, studying can be extremely difficult sometimes. Energy and pain are well, there's been very few days I've totally felt run down! Sleep is still unchanged, not surprised because nothing has ever affected my sleep positively. 

Exercise is iffy, I can't do a workout. But on a day I feel like I have excess energy to expend, a few push-ups or something will not leave me shaking or in pain the rest of the day. If anything it's a move in the right direction.

This last visit has honestly been the best. It went by in a whirlwind, but the progress made in 5 days was astounding.

Day 1 was the worst, I had no energy, no brain power, all I wanted was to stay on the couch. Day 2/3 were a total shift. I was still tired the whole week, but I felt alive haha