Finishing the Week

Im sorry I never followed up on the following visits like I usually do day to day. I just didn't feel like putting energy into writing, but I did feel very well the whole week. Pretty much for the first time ever.

Day 2!

 I did not sleep so great the night before, i was awake most of the night because I just couldn't sleep. OCD and negative thoughts were racing through my head, sleep just doesn't happen on those nights. Plenty of crying yes, sleeping? nah.

So I talked to the doctor about those things and sleep and brain issues.
First off he put me right back on several things he had taken me off. So my break off of a ton of supplements was short lived.
He replaced 3 things I was taking with 1-2 things instead, this new stuff should work better than what I had been taken before. They also should not be permanent, they should be working to fix the problem whereas the few items before were as needed (which became as needed everyday).
We also worked again on neurotransmitters to replace something else I had been taking. Neurotransmitters are used for brain power, sleeping, waking up, thought control, concentrating, basically anything and everything your brain does. My neurotransmitters aren't in the greatest shape which could also lead to me not feeling hungry like a normal person would and it would also leave me awake at night.
We primarily worked on dopamine, serotonin and GABA plus one of the adrenal hormones called norepinephrine.
Dopamine is your brain power, no dopamine = no energy to think or become motivated. GABA is what turns the brain off at night to sleep ( chances are if you have racing thoughts at night or even all the time, not enough GABA in your system). Then Serotonin which is for mood control and its the natural anti depressant your body makes, at night your body turns serotonin into melatonin to sleep.
Since I don't sleep, I have racing thoughts, brain fog, and sometimes absolutely zero motivation I thought these things matched my symptoms rather well.

Unfortunately this wasn't as easy to correct as the eosoniphils on the first day. He added in 6 new things for me to take, two of which replaced 3 things I had been taking. So a little bit of consolidation did happen, just not as much as I would have appreciated....

Day 3!
I slept extremely hard last night and have felt pretty well all day today, which is unusual while im here. This evening I even spent some time out by the pool which I have only ever done once before, usually in the evening I'm too tired to get off the couch. 

In my doctors appointment today we actually ran short, we ran out of problems to work on so I was finished with the doctor early. Not the worst problem to have!
My doctor spent most of our appointment doing chiropractic work, adjusting this and torquing that. I am much less tense after all his beating around.
As far as treatment goes, only 1 new thing today. Through his testing he found an issue with my gut+brain connection.
He found an issue in my amygdala, which is the part of the brain that stores trauma. In my gut he found an infection called toxoplasmosis, which is typically carried by ticks and cats. It can be opportunistic.
In this he determined what was happening between my stomach and brain was that the infection in my gut was setting off a traumatic reaction in my brain, working as a signal to tell my stomach to not accept food. He made a homeopathic remedy to get rid of the infection and to balance out the disconnect, so in theory this could also be a big game changer as far as how i get to eat.
When all these new things start working and getting into my system I may finally be able to eat again. 

Day 4-5

Yesterday and today were both easy doctor visits. Both were a bit on the shorter side.
Yesterday he used something called neurophotonic therapy. He's used this therapy for me before on my first and second visit to the clinic two years ago.
Basically this therapy is a test and a treatment mixed into one. The test is to check how money body processes different wavelengths of light, he used red, blue, green, yellow, orange, and pink. While my body body is processing the light, the doctor runs his tests to see which nerve signals misfire. He finds the misfires and treats them with homeopathics, single doses in office.
This is one of those things that sounds much more complicated than it is, but it does have a profound effect on the nervous system and how it functions. I do not know enough about it to give a detailed explanation, I may have posted about it on visit number 1-2 a few years ago.
So yesterday I did not receive any more remedies to take home.

On the last day we did neurophotonic therapy again along with some more work on my gut.
He found that my spleen was not functioning up to par, which could also affect digestion. He found a couple other minor imbalances with my brain and stomach on top of the spleen, nothing terribly profound though. He gave me two new supplements to take home this time but these are chinese medicine herbals. So for anyone who knows about chinese medicine you'll know these are very strong and very different from standard homeopathic medicine and regular over the counter supplements. Any one whose taken them before can also tell you, they don't taste so great either. Kinda like mixing dirt and alcohol, add in some bitterness, pretty close to what this stuff taste like.
The neurophotonic therapy today was mildly different from yesterday, today he focused on neurology for sleep. So today when he did this therapy he focused on balancing out brain waves so that I will sleep deeper. He had me take a bunch of single doses of homeopathic to correct these imbalances, nothing to take home though.

I have a long list of supplements to take for the next two months but once again, even though its a lot everything is at a lower dose than in the past. Most of my supplements are just once a day instead of twice a day and at they, most are either 1 dropper or 1 tablet instead of multiple. Even though I still have a lot to take it definitely is not in the same way it has been in the past.
Our goal is for me not to need to go back to the clinic until March next year. My doctor thinks I can make it that long with how I have been progressing. 

Overall I am feeling much much better than I have been after my last few visits. I actually had energy to use once I made it home this evening, I normally have none left after a long week at the clinic.

I had a lot more energy to work with this week and I have felt more stable than I normally do after treatment. I still had to rest a lot but not as much as in the past.
I am pleased with the results from this visit. Very pleased!

Hansa Round 3 day 1

Well you guys, I am back in Kansas. I saw the doctor yesterday for an hour then went through all of my therapies for the day.

Doctors report-bloodwork looks good. Blood sugar has come down to the 80's, vitamin D is ok, immune response is high, iron seems to be ok, good cholesterol is low so I need more fat in my diet, easonophils are high indicating parasites/allergies, liver and kidneys are fine, gallbladder seems to be good.

I would say that's a much improved report over last visits. 

Doctors visit-parasites, yeast, and mycoplasma are what I'm dealing with at the moment. Bacteria and heavy metals did no show up as significant through his testing. To me that means Lyme and Mercury aren't causing me any major issues right now, which makes me happy. Progress made.

I knew parasites and yeast would show up, I've been having itching and yeast rashes. No surprise there.

He found the parasites are affecting my brain, stomach, and heart. Which would explain my weird appetite changes, insomnia and brain fog, and contribute to my inability to exercise. 

He also found I have heart worms, which is relatively rare in humans according to Google. He gave me 3 remedies to take, two liquids he compounded with herbs and homeopathics, and a tablet called parazyme.

He also did some chiropractic work using the percussor on my rib cage. This is on of my favorites, whatever he does always makes my back so much less stiff and sore. When he's done I don't feel so frozen from the tight muscles in my back and abdomen.

I do what I can to keep my muscles loose, oils and magnesium, stretching when I can, Epsom salt baths-it's just not the same.

Therapies-sauna, Q laser, lux, st-8, PEMF(new!), massage, and beamer. 

At the end of the day I was satisfied with my results. I felt well, but extremely fatigued. I managed to sleep very hard last night( praise the Lord!) and actually woke up before I had to this morning. I did not get to sleep earlier than usual though.

I'll take it, sleeping hard and waking up without major struggle is a battle in itself.

Before Treatment update

Hello you all, I know it's been a little bit since I've said anything. No news is good news, this time.

I go back to Kansas for treatment soon, which I am looking forward to. This visit has the potential to be the last needed. I would love for it to be, but my guy feeling is that it won't be. 

This week I am trying to get back into juicing like I need to be. I have been doing smoothies, which is good. But I really do need to step it up a bit. Every time I juice consistently I feel significantly better, without fail. 

One thing that makes me think, is it the detoxing from juicing that makes me more alive or is it the nutrition.

I know I don't eat much, my stomach doesn't allow it. Too much food makes me nauseas and bloated(still). 

In a last post I had mentioned my kidney pain had taken off again. I drank an herbal tea for a week, which had almost gotten rid of it. The pain stopped, then came back worse. So I made up another herbal remedy, and stuck to that a little longer which seemed to have finished off whatever that was. It may have been some kind of UTI, I didn't have any burning, just major side pains. If I thumped my back it felt almost like a bruise.

This will be making my list of question to ask the doctor when I get to Kansas.

Another recent thing to have popped up is yeast rashes. I had 1-2, around my hips that weren't bad. I noticed them but didn't think much, figuring maybe it's heat related. I have had a yeast rash around my stomach that comes and goes. I put coconut oil on it and it goes away, until I sway to far from my diet for to long-then it comes back to remind me junk food isn't doing me any favors.

But these rashes are more resistant to the coconut oil. Several rashes had appeared and grew before I started doing anything for them. Which was probably my first mistake. 

Yesterday I started to crack down on them, rubbing in coconut oil with a couple essential oils to soothe the itching that has started. Today I did even more. Maybe tomorrow they will begin to sway...

In the past my stomach rash would disapear after diligently rubbing coconut oil on it. Though each time the rash has come back it's been more resistant to the coconut oil, which can't be a good sign.

Other than this I have been doing well. Fatigue isn't at its worst, neither is insomnia. The night before last I went to sleep at a resonable hour, which felt fantastic by the way.

I am hoping this is the beginning of many more restful nights asleep. I still feel like I have a significant ways to go...but I do enjoy the improvement.

I would say since my last visit to my doctor I have had some of the most extreme ups and downs...

Looking Forward

During the last week a good bit has been going on in my life, good and bad.

Last weekend I had the flu, I'm still trying to regain my energy. 

A few days ago I spoke to Dr.Jowdy for my one month update. He is very pleased with my progress.

At the moment I am trying to keep up with using the sauna. When I was on my trip I could not use it, several days in the last week I've had something come up and not had the time to get in...

So I am trying to get back on track with that, originally Dr.J recommend 3X a week. I would say overall I do closer to 5 days a week.

Today was the first time to use it since the weekend. I set it to 150F, got in at 130F, stayed in almost 40 minutes and when I got out it was 140F. So I did longer than usual and hotter than usual, it made a difference. I was not expecting anything much but I truly and honestly felt less fatigued after getting out. 

Of course half an hour at over 100 degrees I was kinda gross, I went straight to the showers after that!!

After my shower I decided I would continue my roll and make some juice and a smoothie. I needed rehydrating for sure. I made a larger juice and a larger smoothie than normal, along with 5 caps of Betaine HCL. 

I started the HCL last week, still tweaking the dose. I did a stomach acid test and found my stomach is not producing acid well, this leads to me not absorbing food as well. 

All in all and the added acid leaves me with less stomach discomfort after eating. When I eat it always feels like a rock is stuck in my stomach for hours. Even water does this. 

I haven't tried more than 6 capsules yet because I'm a little fearful...I've heard it's very painful if you take to much acid. I know I still need to reach a higher dose. I drank that smoothie an hour ago and I still feel it loud and clear. 

I mentioned already I spoke to my doctor. Between visits he told me to shoot him an email update with any questions and what's going on. 

The summary of how I'm doing is this-fatigue, insomnia, and concentration are still resistant. They are holding on strong. I am not sleeping as well as I did when I was staying at the clinic. That sleep only lasted a few days after leaving. Fatigue has been much better than before on average.

His response was its probably heavy metals I'm still detoxing. He recommended a product called Chelex to help detoxify those.

(Note this is a fraction of what I said and how he responded)

I am excited to go back to the HC, I am doing much better than before. I am not hasitling over trying to find a new herb or treatment to try on myself. I am truly healthier than I was pre-Hansa treatment.

But I still have work to do. My sleep is not consistent, my fatigue is holding on, and my concentration is all over the place. Plus I still can't exercise(which I forgot to mention to Dr.J...)

I don't know how many visits it will take. I hope it only takes this one more in a month but who knows. I am trying to stay focused on my life and my progress more so how much longer I will have to be visiting doctors and taking pills and remedies.

Kinda Paranoid and also Kinda the Flu...

So I came home with a something from my trip last week...and it may be the flu.
Saturday I was very sick, sweating, chills, fever, nausea, didn't feel like eating, coughing, sounds about like the flu. I took a bunch of things, Sunday was better, and Monday I was almost back to normal. Whatever I took helped for sure.

Now I just have this lingering fatigue and cough. As usual with this fatigue I get this depression, that leaves me thinking.
Whenever I get depressed it's like I'm stuck in my head. I'm too tired to do something to keep myself distracted. But of course I'm no near tired enough to actually take a nap. I've got energy, I'm stuck in my head, I don't feel like actually doing anything....recipe for disaster.

I know this time it was just a little bug, may not have even been the flu. I only picked the flu because everyone in my family has had it recently, must be my turn I guess.
But what about next time, I have tried so hard to get over this Lyme disease and all of its co infections, what if I had to start back from ground zero. Full symptoms and no doctor, what if I had to do that again. Can I even do that again? Physically what would happen? My brain is already shot. I already know it will probably be the last of my organs to get back to what it should be doing(like right now I should be asleep, but this is the best thinking I've done all day). It takes nerves up to 8 years to heal, if I can get may brain in the repair stage before the year is over it would still be 2024 before my brain and the rest of my nervous system is healed.

In the accident that triggered this illness I stretched the nerve in my left arm, lost feeling in all my fingers. It's five years later and feeling is back significantly but overall dulled. That's just one nerve that wasn't broken, I know the Lyme has impeded healing but still.

I mean common sense tells me my brain is fine it's just neurotoxins. Once my body isn't infected and toxic it will work just like it should. The thing is I just don't know.

My muscles and my stomach have taken a beating. Now that I am doing better I've been looking back on what's changed. My muscles have changed. Very much shrunken and I can't exercise.

Yesterday I took a home stomach acid test dr.Jowdy told me to do. I had to drink a water/baking soda solution right after getting up, if it took longer than five minutes to belch the stomach isn't producing a significant amount of acid. I never belched or burped. So as per his instructions I ordered some betaine hcl to take with meals. This would explain why I don't feel like eating, food doesn't leave my stomach, I feel it all day long. It could also explain why I did so well last week on all of the junk food, it's already broken down into nothing.
Anyway, Amazon said my HCL will be here by 8pm tomorrow. I'll report back with results.

Now that I got a little sidetracked, here's why I went from talking about my muscles to my stomach. I think that maybe because I'm always trying to digest food(I don't cycle through full/empty between meals) and not actually getting the nutrients, my muscles don't have the nutrients they need to build themselves. Trying the HCL will be interesting, maybe this will be affected.

All of this has just been running through my mind. Like what if I don't actually get well. What if all of these remedies are just a band aid and making me feel better for the time being. What if I do get better for a while then it all comes back and I don't have access to the Hansa Center or any natural Doctor that I like? I would have to live through the herxing again and not knowing if this antibiotic was going to do anything, just hoping that this one or this combo was the one to help me get better(again). What if after all this I get something else and have to learn an all new disease and find a new doctor? Just over and over I keep thinking about these what if questions.

I know I could do it again. I haven't even finished this time around but I have faith that I will, but my mind keeps my head spinning.

I guess after all this there will be a lot to remember, good and bad.

Final Day at Hansa!

Yesterday was the end of my two weeks at the Hansa Center. I am back home now. I feel great! I don't feel 100% of course but everything has improved so much. Sleep has improved big time, I am not in pain, my low back is stronger, my balance is better, endurance had increased, I even excercised a few minutes earlier. I don't go back for 3 months. I will be taking all of my remedies for 2 months, this way he will see me after I have discontinued everything for a month. This will show how much my body is doing itself, if it can hold up or if it needs support.

On to yesterday's appointment!
Yesterday morning the doctor used neurophotonic therapy on me. I had to lay on the table and wear these special glasses with colored LED lights.
He texted me on the 3 different colors checking for dysfunction. The colors were red, green, and blue.

The body uses photons(light frequincies) to communicate. Our body detects these frequincies through the eyes as color. When the body becomes dysfunctional to these frequincies out body reacts to them.

The doctor tested me on each color. Naturally I was dysfunctional to each one to a varying degree. He used homeopathic to correct the dysfunction. After each correction I would have to keep looking at the lights to help my body build up. Because my body couldn't use them as well as before it had become deficient.
Each homeopathic remedy was a one time deal. He gave me the combinations in office and that's it. This won't come up again until my next visit.

He said for most people this isn't one of the big life changing methods for correcting a sick body. It can be for some people but for most it's just beneficial to fix this one more dysfunctional circuit.

It was cool to see him do. Out of all of the therapies he used on me during the office visit this was one of the more fascinating because I could instantly see the before and after results.

Fourth Day at the Clinic

The fourth day with the doctor went well. At this appointment he looked over my head and neck. He used cranio sacral therapy on my skull.
That was very interesting, I have heard of I before but never actually seen it done. The skull is made out of many plates, the muscles that hold the plates can get tight and stop the plates from shifting like they should. This therapy loosens up the muscles and allows the plates to move again.
The doctor used this device called a percussor, it pushes the muscles into releasing using vibrations.
He also used it up and down my left arm (here's why) to breakup scar tissue. Scar tissue blocks energy from flowing around the body.
If anything, it felt good afterwards. All of the areas with excess scar tissue would itch afterwards for a few minutes. Kinda interesting.

Therapies-st8, massage, LUX, q-laser, Bemer 2X, powerplate, and infrared sauna

Anyway, that was the bulk of yesterday's doctors visit.
Overall still feeling well, but all of the therapies are exhausting. Certainly looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow!

First day at Hansa!

Yesterday morning I started with Dr.Jowdy! It was great, impressed to say the least!

I spent almost 2 hours with him going over my history, how I feel now, and doing some testing.
My body tested toxic with chemicals and showed positive towards bacteria and virus. Ammonia is one of the chemicals I was toxic with, which explains the insomnia.
He tested all of supplements and teas I had been taking, ALA and biociden LSF were the only supplements that tested well,

One thing that I really liked with this testing is he tested all of my supplements together. I had brought my bottles in 2 large plastic bags. So he didn't even bother taking anything out, just layed them on me and tested. This shows how well they react with eachother, not just how the body reacts with a single supplement.

Other items I was toxic with were metals, which I knew from the get go. So when that showed up I was not surprised. Overall he said after doing some testing with BRS and looking at my previous blood work that I am inflamed severely, toxic, and my immune system is not kicking on like it should. He said my immune system is running high but isn't able to actually get where it needs to be because of the toxins and inflammation. Interestingly the ALA is great for detoxifying and the biociden is anti inflammatory,

After seeing Dr.Jowdy he had me go to massage with Melissa, infrared sauna, ST-8, Lux on my liver and spleen, Q laser on my kidneys, and then the Beemer.
At the end of the day I felt well, very tired from all that I had to do. It wasn't bad though, I am impressed with their work!

Tomorrow I fly!

I leave for Kansas tomorrow!

Its finally that time, it feels like its taken forever to get to this point yet its here so fast.

Today was long, I finished getting my stuff together to leave. Including my past paperwork from doctors. I hate going through my old medical records, it makes me mad. I look back and see how long this whole ordeal has been going on. Its stressful knowing that except for a few instances I have had to be my own doctor because there is no advocate for me in my state.

That would aggravate anyone knowing there is no one in the entire state who has the backbone enough to stand up for them. No doctor who is intelligent enough to think outside of the box and help a large group of people who live with a debilitating illness every day. It doesn't make sense.

When I went to get my blood drawn a while back I was talking to the lady who drew my blood. I told her I have lyme disease, she asked about the symptoms and the cause, I told her.
I told her this blood work was for a doctor I was going to see in KS. There isn't a doctor in my state because the government doesn't acknowledge the existence of lyme disease.

Her answer was a slight surprise to me.
"That happens a lot, the government doesn't acknowledge a lot of diseases for some reason."
I responded, "its true, if you don't have the flu, cancer, or anything highly contagious you aren't a concern to them"
Her response, "That's true."

Even the lab tech who hasn't heard of my unacknowledged disease knows the government is missing the big picture. Imagine that.
Maybe for the next election write in a vote for that lab tech. Shes brighter than anyone I know of in the government...

Anyway, ill stop ranting.

My friends gave me a nice going away card, it was just so great knowing someone I know is actually thinking of me. Usually people say something along the lines of "I am sorry and you are so young" then the subject keeps moving. That's it.
This is the first time I have ever gotten a get well card for lyme disease. It is certainly extra special to me.

The rodent just makes things that much better, I love funny things.

Helping the Body Beat Lyme Disease Youtube video

 

I just wanted to share this video, it explains the treatment philosophy for lyme disease. I have gone through most of the Hansa Centers videos at some point or another, this is a good one to check out when it comes to LD treatment.

I personally like their treatment philosophy because it re-empowers the body to fight for itself. A strong body does not need a medicine cabinet to fight for it. How can you not beat that??

Happy New Year

I hope you are all having a great start to the new year!

I am beginning to prepare for my trip to Kansas. Hotel, plane ticket and rental car-booked.
I guess I should pack next. I just so love packing...not.
Two weeks is a long time to pack for, its going to be cold from my understanding so ill need warm clothes but I will also need short sleeves for when I am at the center(I am told).

This past week I have had to record my temperature morning and evening, not to my surprise my temp. stays low. Its in the 97's every time.
I know this isn't a good sign and from what I have read in Dr. Jernigans book it does indicate poor body functioning.
Good to know.

Just two days left before I go!

It will be interesting to see what he says, so far I know I have idiopathic scoliosis, lyme disease, babesia, mycoplasma, mercury and lead poisoning, low neurotransmitters, brucella, some viruses, and rocky mountain spotted fever. I have an idea of what they do for the pathogens and metals, the neurotransmitters should correct themselves once my body is functioning, but I don't know about the scoliosis. Being chiropractors I know the spine is one of their top priorities.
My scoliosis isn't bad but it is there and I believe it isn't helpful to the whole situation.

Anyway, me being the overthinker I am has already lead me to think what should I do if this doesn't work. What's my backup plan?? I hate the idea of antibiotics, they don't work. One thing I have noticed in all of the blog reading I have done so many people relapse after being on antibiotics for years.

Well duh!

No antibiotic builds up the immune system to fight for itself. They kill bacteria that's it. They aren't picky with what bacteria they kill either, they knock out bad and good.
The good bacteria in our bodies help us fight infections, they are good for our immune system. If we knock them out its like losing a line of defense.
Lyme disease alone hurts our system enough, why push ourselves down? It just doesn't make good sense to me.

*moving on*


One thing I was thinking as a possibility to clean out my system is a juice fast. It would be a good way to get more nutrients in my system for sure. I already know juicing makes me feel better all around.
In fact this wouldn't be a bad thing to do no matter what my outcome is with Hansa. The
 only catch I see is I could lose weight that I don't have to lose. So if I did it I would probably do multiple short juice fasts, 3 days each or something along those lines.
Just a thought. I think I will do great with the Hansa Center, they are very comprehensive and thorough on top of having strong treatment protocols.

I just like to think ahead for the just in case scenario.

I Don't Know What to Expect

I leave for Hansa in just a few days! I am getting excited. I could finally start the beginning to the end of my chronic lyme disease and co-infections.

I cannot even fathom living without these symptoms. Whats it even like??
*flashback time*

I contracted lyme and co's in 2010, we think. I was bitten by a tick for sure. I saw it with my own eyes. This wasn't the beginning of my symptoms however.
I have had some form of insomnia my entire life, when I was a baby it took a long time for me to fall asleep and I never napped. (so I have been told)
I have also had fatigue and low motivation for as long as I can remember. I don't know when it began, it just became intolerable after my tick bite.
When I was around eight years old my parents took me to an allergist who started me on allergy shots. I hated the idea then and I hate that I did it now.
The doctor said my fatigue was caused by allergies. According to their skin prick test I was allergic to dogs, cats, grass, pollen, milk slightly, and mold off the charts.
My parents went with it. Seeing as I didn't have much of a choice in the matter, I hoped for the best.

Around six years later I finished completely with the doctor and the shots, haven't seen him since.
Guess what? It didn't make much of a difference in how I felt. According to their skin prick test I was less reactive to the allergens, so the shots did something. Yet I felt the same.
Interesting right?

I am not saying I have had lyme since I was a little kid, but something has been wrong with my body and the cause is unknown. It could have been candida, parasites, food allergies, diet, or something else.

The point of this story, I don't know what normal feels like. I have always been tired and I have never slept.

Anyway, back to the present.

I begin treatment with a real doctor who has seen hundred or thousands of people just like me. I like that. In my life my pediatrician, allergist, DO, and ND have all said "I don't know" when it comes to my disease. While we didn't know about the lyme, RMSF, and babesia when I last saw the allergist or the pediatrician I was tired. They didn't have an answer.

Now I am going to see a doctor who understands, he's been in my place. That alone is valuable, I don't care what other credentials a doctor has. Understanding is one of the most import qualities a doctor can possess.

I don't expect to be cured or in remission after two weeks. That's just too unreasonable.
I do expect to have a treatment plan and guidance, I have never had a good one. I think the consistency in treatment will help me if anything.

My one goal I personally want to achieve with these upcoming two weeks is to be able to be able to eat and exercise.
I am a six foot four inch tall teenage boy. I should be able to eat!! I consume maybe 1,000 calories on a good day. I weigh about 137 pounds last I checked. To give you an idea of how large my arms are, I can reach my fingers around my arm, top to bottom. Easy. I do not have any muscle left. Exercise is just not possible for me.

Teenage guys have energy. They workout and make a point to look decent to other people(well...some). They are conscious of what they look like, not necessarily to impress anyone. Just look good.
Ha, not me man. My only attempt I make is to not look like I just walked out of bed when I go out in public. If I look that good, I exceeded my goal.

I have made attempts at starting a light exercise regimen so many times in the past its ridiculous.
Stretching was the first thing I tried, I stuck with it the longest I think. I would just do a basic warm up and basic stretching for about half an hour a few times a week. This was around the time I first went to the ND and was doing better before I got worse again and went to the DO.
Since then I have tried doing reps of just 2-3 pushups and sit-up plus a few other exercises mixed in. Several times I have been able to keep at it a while, a few days a week for a few weeks or month.
I just cannot keep it up though, I crash.
Its like my muscles and connective tissues cannot rebuild and repair themselves well. Now my joints and muscles are the strangest they have ever been(for lack of a better term).  My knees will come out of joint and pop back in randomly, my fingers do the same, plus muscles spasms/cramps and they are just harder to control.
This is a newer symptom for sure. I am sure it has something to do with my body not being able to function properly. Not being able to eat enough its probably related to this also.

SO that's what I really want to get from the two weeks. If I can fuel my body and use it, I know I will be able to get myself to a better health standard.
Overall I expect much more to happen from two weeks of intensive treatment but this is the starting point I want to accomplish.

Three days until I leave!!

Moving Over the Hill

Yesterday I finally had a turning point and started to feel better. Today was even better.

I woke up sick last Monday, this time around it has been hard to kick it. I just couldn't get ahead of it until now.
Finally my kidneys are hurting less, my sinuses are better, my eyes aren't tearing, my joints aren't hurting, and my ears are starting to clear.

Chronic illness is my normal, so when a regular illness like a sinus bug takes hold-it really knocks me down. I do everything I know to do to get rid of it as fast as possible-tea, essential oils, herbs, vitamins, anything. But even all of this isn't enough to replace a failing immune system. To actually be truly healthy the body has to fight. When I am sick though, my medicine cabinet has to fight for me, because I just go downhill and stay there a while.
This time around I was sick with a sinus infection that would normally last a few days for over a week, and I was sick for a solid week. Now that I am finally turning a corner I feel like I have been physically fighting, I feel better but I'm tired and my muscles are worn out.

I start treatment at the Hansa Center on Monday! Their treatment philosophy is to strengthen the body so it can fight for itself. I am ready!
I used to be able to recover quickly but now it takes time. My body just doesn't have the excess energy to spend on healing itself, just preventing further decline.

Last week for example, I spent a week on a strenuous vacation then came home and contracted a sinus bug that was still going strong a week later. 
Other examples are- scabs are slow to heal, I stay worn out after exercising, my joints aren't as tight(sometimes they dislocate briefly), and my kidneys are certainly taking a battering (for unknown reason).
This is not normal teenage stuff. I have friends that brag about how fast their wounds heal or how they never get sick. How do I respond to that? Better yet, why am I still like this? Ive been in treatment for years.
To keep from getting depressed, I usually turn my problems into jokes.
Recently for example I found a good way to explain how my body works.

"Brain-Alright everyone, lets quite."

Sums it up well, my brain doesn't work, my muscles don't work, my kidneys are messed up, my knees hurt, my sense of smell is weak, etc.

Anyway I am glad to say I am finally on the mend. I am going to try restarting my normal tea for babesia and detox today. I had to stop it because every time I would drink it while I was sick, I would get worse. So I guess now that I feel better I need to start back with my normal routine, which is better than staying in bed hoping I wouldn't need to find ANOTHER tissue box.

ND Today!

Today was my regularly scheduled ND appointment! It went well.

Like I mentioned yesterday, I've been feeling crappy since I woke up yesterday morning. So today I talked about that with the ND.
During the usual biofeedback testing and searching for my current infection mycoplasma showed up. Great.
I had a feeling it would show up...usually mycoplasma is the cause of recurrent sinus infections. I had one a few weeks ago and as of yesterday, a second. Here is the best part...not just one but 4 strains showed up.

Go big or go home folks.

The one infection I have so hoped I actually avoided by some miracle, I contracted anyway. Awesome.
At the moment, I am not going to worry about it. I am on several things already which should already have it covered good enough. If not, I go to the Hansa Center in just a few weeks! That will knock it out for sure.
I have been tested for mycoplasma several times, blood and biofeedback. Not one positive before today. So my guess is it is not a chronic infection I have had at high levels for a while now.
I'm sure I have had some level of mycoplasma the whole time, most people do. Just like with candida, most people have it just not at high, infection causing levels.

Another thing showed up for a change. Its something I have been saying for a while now...
I have a kidney infection. Let me put on my shocked face.
My stomach, kidneys, and bladder have some kind of bacterial infection going on-kidneys taking the biggest hit.
Unknown what bacteria specifically, could be mycoplasma.
So the ND had me start a UTI tea made from Marshmallow root and slippery elm bark. Doesn't taste bad, I just hope it knocks it out. I do not want a chronic stomach/kidney infection. Not at all.

It was nice leaving the ND today with only a tea and a homeopathic for colds, both temporary. I don't get to do that much!

There is good news, my usual infections-rickettsia, lyme, babesia, virus, etc did not show up today. So they aren't at astronomical levels today. Probably because the mycoplasma and kidney stress overshadowed it, but still. Ill take it.

Today was a good day though, I felt better than yesterday by a long shot. I expect tomorrow to be a good day :)

Only a few weeks left before I go to the Hansa Center for treatment, its getting exciting. Just knowing that in a few weeks I could feel like a different person is amazing. This morning I had my blood drawn for the visit, I checked out the bloodwork panel, looks very thorough. I cant wait to see what all it says about me.

Day Two Down!

Today was a decent day, not bad. Definite muscle fatigue. This has only further encouraged me to stick to Fell better Challenge! I really want to start feeling better. I also think the better I am before going to the Hansa Center, the better my chances of reaching remission are.

Anyway, here is the highlight of today.

 

Breakfast-A simple fruit smoothie with almond/cashew milk. I also added cocoa powder to the smoothie, great for antioxidants.

 

Lunch- Juice! Sweet potato, Brussels sprouts, zucchini, yellow squash, apples, and broccoli.

Turned out great! This wasn't one of my stronger juices, the zucchini and squash watered it down.

Finished product, I know, your jealous.

 

For dinner I also had a salad.  Just few minutes ago I had a protein shake and pre-made juice from the store, so again something healthy(could be better but...).

The one thing that does stick out to me is how little food this is, this is pretty much all I ate today. This not enough...yet I feel full. Like not a chance I can eat anything else...Why?? Lyme symptoms are so weird...

 

Today I had a reminder of how limited I am with some activities. I went to something with some friends, I was doing fine until they started playing sports...no chance of me doing that. I did try out of my own stubbornness after about an hour, I played okay. My muscles and joints though, would like to disagree. Note to self, sports are still on the not to do list...